Updates and well wishes.

Hello all. How is the holiday rush treating all of us? Yea, its crazy out there but the feelings that this time of year should bring up we should have in our heart all year long. Let's try to be nicer when someone cuts us off in traffic. Or when someone grabs the last Tickle me Elmo.. ok now about the book. I am still working on rewrites and edits for my Vampire book. I haven't really been working on the sequel, but I am getting some well needed information. I am working on new poetry though especailly for this time of year. I will post some very soon. Check out my sister Kelley's new Anthology on her site, www.kelleyvitello.com.Happy Holidays. Please keep checking back for more updates and just Raven's Rants.

Great news!!! again this time its really great.lol

Hello everyone. I am so sorry that I haven't been around but I have been so busy. I am still in school but I am doing doing edits on my paranormal book. I have great news I finally landed myself a book deal and I am now in the process of lengthing and editing my book. It will be in print and available worldwide! YAY!!! Thank you so much for everyone that believed in me, that pushed me and supported me. This is only the beginning. Much love and I promise to blog more often. I blog all the time on myspac. I am www.myspace.com/dkraven look me up. Raven

Wednesday September, 13 2006

Yay, I finally heard from the very nice woman who read my vampire story. I was going to submit it somewhere else because I didn't think she was interested. But I was wrong, she contacted this afternoon and told me that she is behind in submissions but she is still very interested in my work!!! I can't believe this, this really might be it. First I am going to be published in a London mag for my poetry now someone is very interested in my book. Hell Yea!! Thats what I am talking about. So, I am just going to continue working on the second half of my vampire story and hopefully you will all be able to read it very soon. I have 3 stories that are all ready to go too. Now should I submit them somewhere else or what? I dont know this is all so new to me but it very exciting as well. I want to really thank all the beautifulpeople that helped me through this process and kept my hope alive. Kelley, my loving sister, thank you so much for all your support. I love you girl. Susan, to you my wonderful friend, thank you so much for all your advice, it was you that gave me the advice to send my poetry over sea for that I can not truly thank you enough. To the rest of you that have posted such wonderful supportive comments,thank you all and I will never forget yall. This is a glorious day(even though it is cold as hell)hahaha My love and respect to all. Raven

yay!!! Goods news has finally come

Wow! today is a good day.I have sent some of my poetry off over seas(Thank you very much,Susan!!) Today in the mal I got a letter saying that a mag in London wants to publish some of my stuff!!! what!? that is totally kool!! I am so happy! I can not believe it! I wasn't having the best day and now I am. Ilove writing poetry and I am so glad that I sent off that stuff. Now I will send off more. Poetry rulez!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok This might be it!

Alright just like in the last post. I did tweak my story last night and resubmitted it. I just got another email back and she said and I quote, " Wow Raven. I will be in touch, dear writer." Did she just call me a writer?! Are you serious. I am so happy that I cant even stand it! I don't want to get overly excited and then be let down,but I have a big smile on my face and honestly it feels good. I am proud of myself and proud of my work. I just had to tell someone!! WoooHooo

A Good Start

Hello Fellow writers, How are yall on this beautiful Wednesday afternoon? Well, today is a weird day because I got a reply from one of the stories I wrote.Yes, it came back like the other one but this time the lady said that she would re read it if I tweaked it more. Funny because I don't even remember sending this out. I went back into my story and read it and I found it was good but not the best I could have done. I was happy to be finished but to me it could have been so much better. I have been working on this story now I get this reply back saying if I tweak send it back and maybe it will happen for me. Merit! She said my story has MERIT! I love it, that makes me so happy. So when I am done I will send it back in and cross your fingers, the awesome journey of mine just might goto the next level. I have a question where can I go for someone to critique my work? Happy writing everyone!!

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Remembering September 3

I made it through another year and what a year it has been.
As of last night it has been 4 years since I lost my mother. Every year it does it a tad bit easier but the pain of losing her is still haunting my heart. I try to smile and be strong but inside I feel lost and weak still,as if it just happened and I can not see my way through the darkness.
I miss her so much. I struggle everyday, the stresses of daily life, but nothing compares to her lost. I feel bad, I lost my father recently and it just doesnt feel the same way. I loved him, but my mother was my rock, my support, my everything, my daughter's everything. How can I even explain to my youngest who has never even had the chance to see her, how can I explain how much she loved him?
I try not to think about everything that happened that faithful day 4 years ago.
I just try to live each day and love as much as I can, everyday because I know that tomorrow is not promised to anyone.
It was funny, I got my first few rejections(yup more than one. But not for my poetry,I have to become a better romance/erotica writer) and it didn't stun me but hurt me. It tried to dent my armour, this business is like modleing, it hurts when your on the outside looking in,but once your apart it, it is the best part ever. Being published makes a person feel that they have achieved something in thier lives and that thier writing means something to someone besides themselves. I started going over my work line by line changing,re writing, adding more detail. I will do this, I have promised myself because I want my mother to look down upon me and say That I finally made my mark. I want my kids to be able to say my mother is a writer and it means something. I know this field is not easy to break into and I know it takes work to achieve any goal or dream.
So watch out world, I am coming and then reap the whirldwind because I am a writer right now published or not!

A Traitor among us( poetry korner)

There is a traitor among us, Roaming free. He is in our mists and we can not truly see. That his intentions are not as good as he may seem to be. With a smile on his face And a dagger in your back. Be careful of this snake for he will one day attack. For his jealous eyes have spotted and trained upon this weary soul. He can no longer have this love. And that is why his anger grows. He lashes out at the world he does not know, At a child that is not his, but he watched grow. Turning her from docile to untamed and wild But his mind can not fathom what a terrible deed he has done. For he only thinks that is it all in good fun So again be careful traveling alone with your kids This traitor is among us And I know who he is.

I am back!

Yay,
I just needed some soul searching and I did that. I am here where I post what I want and say what I want. I am happy as hell today and I am not letting anyone or anything drag me down. Thank you to my sister Kelley and my writer inspired friend Susan for giving me all the support and love for the written word as much I.
I am proud of what I can write and what flows naturally from me.
I am a poet!
I am a write, no matter if I am writing romance novels or supernatural ones, even in my poetry I am different and I had to realize that it my differnce from others that draw the attention that I need.
Happiness to all!
Raven
Oh I am looking for a professional to ctitque my work anyone wanna take a stab at it?
thanx in advance

Im leaving..

Hi all, to my friends who come here to support my work thanks,but I guess I am packing up my quills and finding somewhere else to lay my head. It has nothing to do with this site or anyone just me. Writing fills a aprt of me that I can not explain. I don't to make money or to get famous. I write because thats who Iam.
I am a writer and always a poet. I am not sure that I belong here with such writers as yourselves and I dont want to change my style or who I am to achieve what it is that I truly want. Yes this is confusing for me. I have not totally made up my mind but I will be slowly deleting my work from this site but hopefully not from the hearts and minds of the few of you that I might have touched with my words.
Thanks again and I hope to meet all of you someday.
Write on, my friends.
Follow your hearts and the quill will follow.
Raven

YAY or NAY!!

OK now check this out.I know that I usually post poetry on here with a few of my rants mixed in, well this is neither. I am asking yet another question.

This weekend I was supposed to be going to Canada with my friends(and for those of you out there I am the CEO I truly dont even know what that means, but I am the President of an entertainment company. My company was just idea in my head till I went to Canada last year, it was there that I decided to talk to some other people who I trusted. Long story short the company was born)
Ok now I have a chance to go to canada again, business and just hanging out. I really need a vacation. I have 3 kids and no help and I wanna go,right?
So things happen and I can nt go this weekend.
I am pissed!!!
Then my friend calls me up this morning and says lets change weekend's!
Oh crap that would be so kool! ok so we call everyone that the plans are changed and it works out better for everyone...
THEN,
I get a call from my job and this woman who I have worked this before called my job and asked just for me. How sweet, right?
So now the trip and this lady are on the same day!!
oh no what do I do now?

Agent, Agent, How can I get an agent?

HELP!!! Hahahaa I have no clue if I need an agent. I think that I might. I think that it might make me journey an easier for the book(s) that I am writing now.
Now I have noticed that there are some agents on here but what can I do?
I can not just write to them and ask them whats going on? Can I? Is that the way it goes? I have no idea how to do this. But then I have noticed that there are so many romance writers and I was thinking of how I could find some folks in my genre. I dont know any takers?
Advice needed.
Thanx yall,
Raven

Wondering what the hell is going on

Ya know ok I am divorced and I am very happy about that. I have to let my x see the boys but there are more times when they come home with bruises. Yes, I have 2 boys and they are rough but they are also 5,3 and raised primarly by a sensitive,open mined woman(me). Ever since my divorce my x is 10 times more interested in me than when we were married.

I wont get into the reasons why we are not together but lets just say I dont trust this asshole as far as I can spit and I am a lady so I dont spit. ya mean??
Ok he has been calling me trying to get me to sleep with him.

Horny bastard!

I dont wanna sleep with him. Screw that. So last night he called for the second time and said very calmly that my youngest son had fallen and cut himself and he didnt know if he needed stitches. I race over there and see this huge gash over my sons eye. Hell yea he needs stitches, what was he BLIND.
The whole thing all he wanted was to get my friend to leave so he could take me home and get me to sleep with him. My son was hurt!! Our son.
Where is his fuckin brains!
In his DICK
omfg I can not believe him or this whole situation. I told the courts when we were splitting up he wasnt watching them. Nothing was done! I dont know. I just dont know!!

Invisible (poetry korner)

Invisible

You look at only her
And right through me
It is like men are blind
And can not see anything but my behind
Invisible me
Trying to be
Seen by you

But it doesn’t matter what I do
A big heart, beautiful smile.
Nothing is all worth while.
My heart hurts but I will just let it be
I am invisible
Just invisible me

Hidden

Hiding behind you.
Where no one can se me
Soft spoken and quiet
not in the middle of your riot
I dont need to be apart of your family.
I will continue to live
My love is mine to give
You are my friend
and I will respect you till the end.
I will find love,but not hiding behind you.
When that happens I ask
Whatcha wanna do?

Her or Me? (poetry korner)

She likes him and him and maybe him too.
I wonder if I were a man if she'd like me too.
A man can only see the outside shell,even though she may seem happy she might put him through hell.
But I want none of thay. I want just love as a matter of fact.
Why can't I be loved for who I am?
Why must I play games,it's a sham.
to find some one who can stare into my soul who isn't afraid of achieiving our goals.
For him to see beyond her and into me really deserves my loyality.
So this is me,open for all to see tell me now is it Her or Me.

A message to my daughter (poetry korner)

This is a poem I wrote for my daughter. She is now 13 and I still remember when she was smaller. She has no idea how she only saved my life. When I stare into her eyes I see such a golden light inside of her. She is my beautiful bright star.

A message to my daughter

So much love to give
So much time to share.
You will never to totally aware.
You are my shining Bright Star
With those big dancing brown eyes and beautiful smile.
Come and sit on my lap at least for alittle while
Soon you'll be grown
And going out into the world on your own
Just remember how much I love you
How much I care
Remember that my love, my spirit
Will be with you everywhere

Divorcing the Man (poetry korner)

Let me say that I wrote this when I knew that my marriage was over. I know that many of you are in loving marriages and I am happy for all of you,but there are some of us who get caught up in something that changes us forever. This is one of the many poems published by poetry.com and I wanted to share it with all of you.

Divorcing the man

As I sit waiting for the rain
I try not to think of how your driving me insane.
You think your smarter than me?
Why can't you just let things be?
You always want to have your way.
Sooner than later will come the day that I tell you to just go away!
You listen to only your mother like she is God or someone other than who she is.
You were supposed to be my man,my husband
I see marrying you as judgement for my sins
Now in this battle you can not win!
My soul is mine and mine alone.
As of late your true colors you have shown.
I remember once you asked me for my hand
Now I can not wait to be
Divorcing the man.

The Otherside. (poetry korner)

I had a dream of the otherside
I have had this dream since my parents died.
It is a beautiful place
In sacred time and space.
Where wild trees grow,You never grow old.
Where your smile never fades
And the happiness lasts for days and days.
The grass so green,with air so crisp and clean
Where there is no pain,no jealousy or shame.
No anger,no hatred and no one to blame.
No negativity. Just tranquillity.
Where peace and happiness reside.
That's the place my parents went the day that they died.

What I want (poetry korner)

Wishing upon a soul to find,
A man whom I can call all mine.
A smart man not always thinking with his dick!
guys like that really make me sick!
Where is the sensitive,sensual soul I seek?
Am I pushing myself away from the one I will love everyday?
Do I trust in too much?
Should I even believe in such realities or maybe just fantasies of you and me?
Dreams and schemes.
River and streams.
All of this beyond my dreams of hearing 3 words whispered to me.
To be loved,to give love
that is all I wish to see.

Endometrisos (poetry korner)

Endometrisos that was my diagnosis
it all happened in 1998
and I guess it was my fate
to be cursed with pain
t hat I could not change
At least I know it has a name
It's called Endometrisos
And now I dont feel ashamed!

Society (poetry korner)

Society is filled with anxieties of trying to accomplish unreal realities
to save ourselves from day to day slavery,not just for one,but you and me
Some think it is gone,others say they are wrong.
Each day I work I come to know that people see the color of my skin then they think they know which box to put me in.
I see my people,brown, red and black
making up for past mistakes and the things that they lack
Day by day I see no change
Just that justice has been rearranged
Stolen land,stolen people
crushed pride and years of unheard cries
Society circles round and round
So keep your feet planted on the ground
Keep your dreams and expression free
And never no never fear the anxiety of the reality on this crazy messed up thing we call our "Society!"

Thoughts of you(poetry korner)

Hey so here I am again giving yall alittle taste of something new.

Thoughts of You.

Thoughts of you and what you can make me do
flow across my mind
I feel your hands under my dress
caressing my skin and whispering in earnest.

Feverishly hot
afraid to breath
wanting,no needing for you to please me.

Lay me down with erotic thunder,teasing me with your tongue, I explode more times then one cares to wonder.
As you slowly slip inside my tight well
I feel your hardness begin to swell
harder,faster,Don't stop,I yell!
Sweat dripping from us like if we were in the bowels of hell.

I feel you now releasing your seed,sending constant shudders throughtout me
Panting,squeezing,holding you tight.
I realize I am dreaming,I'm all wet with delight.
Thoughts of you course through my brain while the horniness drives me insane.

Ravish me now, I beg of thee.
Damn I am dreaming again of what it's like having you inside me.

Omg I can't believe I wrote that. Omg. wow ok

My Kiss (poetry korner)

ok ok this is my first try at something new,but I dreamed this poem and I figured I would write it down. Do you like it?


My Kiss
First it starts out brief for it is such a relief.
Then your soul will slowly start to yearn for my sweet soft lips, that will be your only concern.
And in a secret place within your soul that is only meant for me to know
is where our passion will grow.
As our lips caress our hot bodies we do undress.
Seeing your pure nakeness has me very impressed.
Your body and soul are amazing and that's no contest.
When you touch my skin I can feel the heat burning inside my breasts.
My kiss and touch are such delighful entities,that you may lose all thoughts except those naughty ones of me.
As our tongues do touch and we are fondling eachother but not too rough.
I beg you to gently lick my skin and feel the warmth within, then you can begin to take my breath away.
Close your eyes,feel my lips, remember the rhythmic sway of my hips, then know that all this began with My Kiss.

Player's Breed.(poetry korner)

Player's Breed.

You say you love her,but you sleep with me.
You don't talk to her,yet confide in me.
Tell me how that is?
Tell me how that works?
How can you do that without being a jerk?

Player's are a breed
A step or two behind.
Not wanting love but all the free sex they can find.
Don't fall prey to the player's breed.
For they will tear out your heart and leave there to bleed.
Just play the game and they will a player's breed can be you or me!

Feel the need (poetry korner)

Feel the Need..
I feel the need
the need to run
the need to hide
to crawl up deep inside.
I feel the need.
The need to cry
the need to scream
to scratch,bite and fight until my soul has been redeemed.
I feel the need.
The need to hate
the need to love
to do whatever pleases me and the man above.
There are emotions that run so deep that it makes me find the peace of mind to sleep.
I am torn between two worlds.
One that has limits and borders,the other holds freedom.
I feel the need
or maybe it is something that I lack.
I need to try to get my life back on track.
I feel the need
the need to be me.
And that will only happen when I chose to finally be free.

borinnggg...

Wow I think this should have been my poetry korner altogether cuz I am not doing anything else but writing poetry. Oh I should try to post a part of my new book. It is hard to write two books at one time I'll tell ya what. But honestly when I need to write poetry then thats what I do but if I want to get into the other book then thats what I do. My other book is fantasy and love story. I will try to post alittle bit of it soon though I would like some feedback, but since it is only my friend em and my sister reading this I dont know how much good it would do,but I will think about it.

Why am I here? (poetry korner)

Why am I here?
Living in fear
living in chronic pain
everyday is all the same
No money I have
no promises I see
My life is my kids and me.
I won't let the pain stop me
from trying to be free
I want a little space
the love and support just to be:
A mother
A poet
A woman that is divine
All are gifts that one day will be mine
I just have to live
Fight the struggle everyday
that one day I maybe given the chance
to prove my worth
And say to all who never believed that I do belong on this earth!

general thoughts

Here is something to think about.

Why do women think they can change men?! We can't get used to it! Especially if the guy is already a cheater and they way you got to him was because you were cheating with him when he was married?! Yea thats always a good start.

This crazy chick now stalks me. When I met the guy I didnt think they were together. And when I found out I called it off. Now they both want me. He likes me. I understand, I feel that if he was single he could be good for me,but then again some recent events have taken place to show me that he may not have enough brain cells to even deal with me on a non sexual level.

How are you going to let someone break you down you so much that you are willing to lose your company that you worked all your life for? How can you afford all your have to haves, when there is no money?!
Anyway I don't wanna be involved in this crazy situation. I am not in it yet everytime I put it behind me she brings me up? Why? Leave me alone. Did she ever think that maybe if she tried to be herself and not keep bringing me up it might work.(there is only one Raven)

She craves me just as bad as her man does!! HA. I am not kidding. And why do women get pregnant in high hopes of keeping a man that doesn't want to be kept?
I can not stand women who think that bringing innocent children into unloving and unstable relationships is a good idea. In fact they are not women at all but FOOLS! Children deserve so much better than a family built on lies and deciet.

Now if this chick stalks me here like she does on myspace then here is alittle hint
"Get a life. You and I both know that if he didn't have more feelings for me than he does for you thewn you wouldnt be sweating all the time. I dont want him. You can have him. But honestly I deserve better and you do too. I am more angered by the fact you think you could bring another child into this world thinking she can your already screwed up relationship! This coming from a man that has 4 kids with 3 you hear me 3 different babies mamas! Yea thats what I want to be one of the many! Yea I am running over right now to get some of that super sperm right now! Ok Ok I know none of this sounds good, but it has to be said. Stop thinking me! Stop making your choices about your relationship through me, cuz I don't care what yall do. For real. I want someone in my life that I can trust. Not someone that likes to have sex with alot of women. Come on sweetie, don't give all blondes a bad rep. (no offense to blondes at all. ) You really need to get up and get a real job, find some hobbies that are your own and try being a real woman with some kinda confidence about yourself. Just cuz you always look like a hot mess you really dont have to be a hot mess! On the real, I am only being honest. See you have never talked me and you honestly don't even know me. I am not the one to play games with you. That is just alittle CRAZY!! Use your brains and do what is right for you and your daughter. Thats who I think about. Thats why I get up everyday and work on tail off to provide a good life for them. Be a mother,not just the word become the meaning of the word. And if you don't know what it is then look it up. But leave me alone!"

Geez I am done. Thanks for letting me vent. I really needed that.
Raven

Remembering..(Poetry Korner)

Remembering..
Each passing day is just like another
all blending in with eachother.
But on these specail days I remember.
I remember my pain
My family under so much strain,so much to handle I feel like I suddenly went insane.
I remember I was lost in my worst fear.
I remember wishing and wanting my parents to be here.
But I can remember thier smiles
and the laughs we had once in awhile.
I knew that I loved you both,the same but different from one another.
On this day and everyday I will remember them.
Feel the love that they do send, from heaven above.
I love and miss my father and my mother.
Rest in peace.


This poem still brings tears to my eyes. I wrote so about pain that when I lost my parents I couldn't write. My mind was so full that the words could not be written down. They just rumbled around in my head and finally in sleep(no lie) I jotted some words on down and this was just one of the poems that I finally have enough strength to write.

Disabled (poetry korner)

Disabled.
Disabled like a fable.
No story I can tell.
Tired of people
telling me to hurry up and get well.
I would if I could.
This is my life,not a game.
I am running on empty.
My health is to blame.
My legs always hurt,
I have a womb that doesn't work.
Hands that don't write and something wrong with my sight.
All of these crazy fears and for this I shed countless tears.
It's really hard to deal with daily life it is so surreal,
It pounds down so hard.
searing my flesh,closing me in.
Into this disabled body with burning skin.
But with a smile on my face,
I can replace.
The pain inside, that I always hide.
Disabled like a fable
With no story I can tell.

Well, I would first like to thank my sister(Kelley) for turning me onto this place. Anywhere I can express myself through writing is always good for me. I will try to post as often as I can,but I must say working as a nurse,raising 3 kids alone and running a business I am figuring out that my time is short. Here I will post poetry,thoughts,words of encouragement and wisdom and if I get alittle pissed well then I will post that too. LoL. So welcome to my spot for expression. I hope that you can enjoy it.
Raven